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| So it's been like a month since I last updated and there's a lot of stuff I wanted to write about when it happened but I just don't feel like dwelling on it anymore. My birthday and Micah's (my nephew) was on the 13th; I turned 25 (eeek) and he turned 7 which was crazy because for some reason I thought he was turning 6, and my Mom reminded me like a couple days before the actual day that he was turning 7, and I feel so bad for forgetting!!! Must be because I'm getting old lol. So on my actual birthday Shanon and my Mom took me out to lunch which was great and I'd been worried that I wouldn't get to see my Mom or anybody in my family on my actual birthday since it was a weekday, so I was kind of depressed about that all month. But then Shanon opened her mouth and shouted out something when I was talking to my Mom that was kind of obvious, so I wasn't that surprised. Plus Becky (who was the only one who texted me to say happy b-day at midnight, which is just sad since we haven't been talking for 2 whole years) texted me something like "Mom's on her way, I hope you guys have fun" so I was like ha-ha!
So lunch was nice, but my Mom tried to make me wear a tiara and ribbon proclaiming that I was a Diva cause I jokingly said I was when I was complaining about stuff changing and how I didn't want my birthday specialness to change just cause I'm getting old. I mean, my name even means Princess, so hello! I never want to have a boring birthday, ever, no matter how old I get! I told Shanon the story my Mom told me about when I was born, my brother and sisters danced and clapped and sang when they heard the news and she was like "Well, that explains a lot!" lol. We went to 99 Restaurant which has the best fries, EVER and my Mom had never been, and yes she made me wear the damn tiara inside but like right when we were sitting down it fell off so thank goodness that very few people saw me wearing it in public! Then Shanon and I just chilled once we got home and watched Supernatural for a couple hours.
On Friday Shanon made spaghetti and meatballs with garlic bread, which was totally delicious and super sweet and then on Saturday we all went to my Mom's house for Micah's and my party, which was fun and went great. It was very relaxed and Shanon, Micah, and I just chilled on the couch for awhile before opening presents. Micah went first and I took a long video of him opening all his presents and then extracted some frames later on so from the video I got a bunch of pics of him opening every gift, and when I say a bunch I mean 40. I got him the Harry Potter Lego Knight Bus which was the first present he opened, I think, and he was really excited about that cause he already had a bunch of the Harry Potter Lego sets, and Becky got him Hagrid's Hut, and Raigan got him the Hogwarts Castle (which for some reason doesn't come with Ron even though it comes with Harry and Hermione and freaking Professor Flitwick and Filch, and it just bugs me!). The castle was the biggest and has over a thousand pieces but after diner Shanon and I put the Knight Bus together, well like the first level, and then I offered to bring it home and finish putting it together and Micah was pleased with that because he just wanted to play with it of course. Anyway, he got some movies from my Mom and Andy got him some Thor action figures, then it was my turn hehehe! Of course I'd already opened my Nook from Shanon weeks ago, but I got Something Borrowed the DVD, from Raigan which she and I both LOVED and she also got me the book which we both really wanted to read so I was excited about that and promised Raigan she could read it after me, then I got 4 Jodi Picoult books from my Mom (Picture Perfect, The Pact, Second Glance, & Salem Falls) and 2 DVDs (Transformers: Dark of the Moon & the extended cut of Sucker Punch which is freaking awesome! And my Mom also got me a membership to Barnes & Noble and a gift certificate for the Marquee Cinemas for 2 and I was thinking of taking Micah to see Real Steel cause we both want to see it lol.
After presents we had diner, then later on we had cake (for Micah) and Ice-Cream cake for me since I hate regular cake which was sooooooooooo yummy, then we kind of hung out in the living room till Raigan took us home.
So it was definitely a good birthday and it was kind of spread out over 3 days which was really awesome :-D and I enjoyed spending time with my family and Shanon and Micah, and I feel lucky to have a family and a girlfriend who always make my birthday special each and every year. Really, really lucky <3.
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| Not much has been going on lately, well except for more crap with Becky and Nate. He locked her out of their apartment a couple weeks ago and so she put her fist through the glass in the front door (which my Mom ended up cleaning up and replacing!). Well she called my Mom and asked her to come over and pick up Micah and her, and when she got there Becky was in an undershirt and underwear and Micah was crying on the couch because Nate left. Poor Micah, he actually feels sorry for that fucking bastard. Like I said, my poor Mom cleaned up all the glass and taped plastic bags over the window till she could replace the glass, cleaned up their house all the while waiting for Becky to get dressed in the bedroom and I guess like half an hour went by and my Mom eventually went in there and she was passed out on the bed. *shakes head* So my Mom had to wait for her to wake up and I guess she passed out again in the car on the way to my Mom's house (my Mom was driving) and she passed out yet again at my Mom's house and Micah kept checking to see if Mommy was still "sleeping". It's so fucked up!! And then on Sunday Nate was treating Becky like shit as usual and poor Micah was sick and he kept yelling at her to come outside with him and they got into a fight and she called my other sister to ask if she and Micah could come over and spend the night. It was Raigan's only night off and she had just finished shopping with my Mom and all these errands but she said of course they could come over, and Becky dropped off Micah and then went back out to get her work clothes and some clothes for Micah and I guess Nate started yelling at her and grabbed her by the neck and a friend who was there told him to let her go so he did and she showed back up at Raigan's place drunk and continued to drink all night long. Raigan said she made her whole apartment reek and all of Micah's clothes smelled like smoke so she febreezed everything like mad lol. She's in love with that stuff!! And of course Becky went back the next day but when I talked to Raigan yesterday she hadn't really heard from her except once. Poor Micah was really sick and ended up staying home from school, but I hope he's feeling better, poor kid!
Like I said, not much else has been going on, I've been sleeping all day and staying up all night, going to sleep at 9:00 in the morning waking up at 5:00pm and Shanon (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=88.8) rainbowsiluv) has been getting up much earlier and going to sleep earlier at night so we haven't been spending very much time together which sucks because I miss her and miss hanging out together all night.
But today we got a little visit from the neighbor D. who was taking a pregnancy test and wanted Shanon to be a part of it, so I had to be a part of it and I was like so uncomfortable!! I stayed on the bed while Shanon sat outside the door shouting out instructions and she peed in one of our tupperware containers. So gross! And she's a very nervous person but she was even more nervous today and kept saying sorry every other minute and kept assuring me she liked Shanon only as a friend lmao. It's not like I'm worried about them getting together, which I tried to tell her but she repeats herself a lot and talks so fast she runs out of breath but just keeps on talking. She's so crazy lol. And the other day when I was getting the mail and I walked past her door, she and her hubby M. (previously known as Creepy Guy) were sitting inside smoking, of course, so I waved and said hi and I guess M. was so shocked he nearly fell out of his chair. Lmfao He um, thought I hated him for some reason, I can't guess why lol, and was very surprised that I talked to him. According to D. he kept saying "I can't believe she talked to me, she actually said hello!" and when Shanon went over there he said "Your girlfriend said hi to me!!!!" I guess I made his day lol. But I did dislike him and find him creepy because of the hand holding incident and the ass touching incident and general creepiness, but since Shanon is now friends with them I've been making an effort to be nicer. I guess I'm more of a bitch than I realized! lol
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|  Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban by J.K. Rowling
This is actually my favorite book of the series, I just really loved the character of Sirius and I thought it was a turining point in the series. Harry, Ron, and Hermione are entering their teenage years and their relationships are starting to change and mature. Harry finds out more about his Dad and develops a strong connection with Lupin and Sirius, and I also love how things come together at the end; I just thought it was really clever and imaganitive.
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| | Shanon rainbowsiluv and I sort of took a nap earlier after watching Hanna which was a really awesome movie btw, so I can't go back to sleep. But Shanon totally already fell asleep a couple hours ago and at first I was kind of pissed 'cause I wanted her to stay up with me, and now I'm just bored. And I don't get bored very often, but I don't feel like reading, I was already on the internet for awhile, nobody's texting me, I'm stuck in my video games and nothing really good is on TV. Even then I could usually find something to do, but lately I've been feeling blah like nothing appeals to me. It suuuuucks!!!!!! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | I'm reading the Weetzie Bat books by Francesca Lia Block and I haven't read them in years and years. It's been by favorite book since I was 13 or 14 and Block has been my favorite author for as many years. They're a great inspiration to me and they're so magical and unique!! And Shanon just read them and she loves them too, which is just the slinkster-coolest thing ever!!!! <3 Posted via m.livejournal.com. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| My friend Angie is having a birthday party for her daughter who turned 2 yesterday, tonight and I'm kind of nervous because her family is going to be there and after hearing about the way they've been treating my friend I want nothing more than to slap her Mom. AND her asshole ex is going to be there since he's Jordin's father, but I fucking HATE him and I usually want to bitch him out whenever I'm around him. And at first Shanon didn't want to go because she didn't want to spend the night at my parent's house (I'll explain in a minute), but I made her promise to come so I don't say anything bitchy 'cause she always calms me down, so hopefully I can keep my big mouth shut and keep my glares to a minimum.
The party's at 6:00 PM and Angie doesn't have a working car right now so I have no way of getting home, and for whatever reason I can't stay there, maybe 'cause her ex is spending the night? So I told my Mom my dilemma and she suggested I sleep on the pull-out couch since my room is uninhabitable and I reluctantly agreed. I'm not really thrilled about it 'cause I'm going to have to listen to Andy come in and out of his room a million times and probably not get any sleep. But I'll get to see Beny!!!! And hopefully I'll get to look through my books which I've been wanting to do for forever!!
I had to get up way too early (for me) since my Mom's going to be here between 1:00-2:00 and I had to take a shower early so Shanon has enough hot water to take hers later.
Well, anyway, wish me luck that everything goes smoothly! And I'm bummed 'cause when I thought I was going alone, I was going to call my friend Lynzi and we've never talked on the phone before so I was kind of nervous, but now that Shanon's coming with me I probably won't be able to. :-( But at least I won't be sleeping alone tonight, and I am happy Shanon's coming and I guess I will call Lynzi some other time... | | comments: Leave a comment |
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| I had a therapy appointment today and last time I saw my therapist (Linda) she told me to come early the next time. So I got there an hour early (my appointment was at 4:00pm) and I didn't get to go in until 4:30!! But anyway, it was a really great session and we were the only two people in the building which was kind of cool, the office was like a ghost town!
So anyway, we sat down and we talked about a couple things like the fact that I'm relieved that Becky's new landlord turned out not to be a pedophile and how I've been sleeping shitty and missed my appointment with Bonnie, and then I asked her if it was possible for her to help me find a job on-line that I could do from home. And this is so funny, she dropped her papers said "Don't go anywhere" and literally ran down the hall, and it was so hilarious because I could hear her running!!! lol So like two minutes later she comes back with SUSAN BARBER!! I knew Susan because she worked at HTC where I was a receptionist for almost two years, so I knew who she was and she of course remembered me so we got to catch up a little and she told me who'd left and who was still around, which was cool because I haven't really heard any news in sooo long and working there had such a HUGE impact on my life.
So Susan and I start talking about Pinnacle which is one of HTC's company's and helps people find jobs based on their skills, so I started telling her about how I wanted to work from home doing on-line whatever as long as it was legitimate and not a scam. So she and Linda are going to help me find a job from home, and Susan actually knows the real jobs out there because of her job, so it's really cool!! And Linda said she knew of a company that helped people get on-line jobs and even provided them with a laptop which would just be so amazing! So I feel really good about that and I'm glad I got the ball rolling and I have people in my corner who know what they're doing and can help me with something I've been interested in for sooooooo long.
So it's very exciting and fantastic and awesome and grand and wonderful and I feel really, really happy right now, so YAYYYYY!!
P.S. Somehow 911 got called when I was there and they said someone called from my therapist's office even though there were only 3 people working all day and no one called them, so weird but amusing! | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| I am soooooo tired! I always feel super tired since I started the Abilify and once I wake up, no matter how exhausted I am, I can't fall back to sleep. It suuuuuucks!
But anyway... Yesterday my nephew Micah came over and the day before Shanon and I had cleaned the entire house, and I mean spotless. And I tried to go to bed early so I could get up early and get ready for Shanon's Dad's Birthday Party before Micah came so that I wouldn't have to rush when he left, but I couldn't fall asleep till like 4:00am and I had to get up at 10:30am (kill me). So I managed to get up on time, eat, shower, get dressed, blah blah blah all before Shanon got up and started her day (yay me!). And the closer it got to 1:30pm the more nervous I started to get, so I started re-neatening the house, vacuuming again, re-smoothing the bed, basically acting nuts. But I got a call from my sister Raigan when I was getting dressed telling me to not be offended if he was shy or stand-offish, to call her if I had any problems, all this stuff that was like totally psyching me out. So I started thinking What if he doesn't like me anymore? What if he doesn't have any fun? What if it's weird and awkward? What if he wants to leave before my Mom comes back? What if he's scared?? I was just a total nervous-wreck and when he did finally get here it was a little weird at first but after my Mom left it was a lot easier to just chill- for the both of us. It was like when you go to a friend's house when you're a little kid and you kind of wait for your parents to stop talking and for your Mom to leave so you can start having fun lol.
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So when my Mom got here she brought us McDonalds and she stayed for like 20 minutes and kept looking at me like Say something! Engage your nephew!! But after she left Micah and I both relaxed and started playing Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 video game and he liked that for a while, he kept wanting to shoot Ron and Hermione and I was like "Not Hermione!!" lol And every time we shot a bad guy he kept saying "Ooh, he felt that one!" LMAO! Of course, I have to wonder what phrases he's picked up from Nate, ugh! But he was being SOOOOO funny like "How do you like that, baby?" Eventually he got bored because we were at the part where you have to walk an endless path through "woods" that consist of steam stacks, ruined trailers, and abandoned warehouses and buildings (some woods, huh?) and then when you finally catch up to Dean and Griphook you have to go back the way you came! That part bored and frustrated the crap out of me so I understood. So instead we played Mario Kart, and he really liked battling, where you have to pick up coins and kept wanting to be a different team after every game lol. We played that for a really long time and then we started racing and he kept wanting to go to hard lands like the Rainbow Road one (so trippy) and he's never exactly been a fair sport even when he was really young, so when he comes in last he wants to turn it off and play somewhere else instead of finishing the race, but I was trying to encourage him to play it out to the end even if you think you might lose and suggest when he comes back he can practice and get better. I also had this great idea of hooking up his PSP to my PS3 so we can play his PSP games on a bigger screen the next time he came over, and he got really excited about that so I think he wants to come over again, and I hope Mom can arrange that soon. God I missed that kid SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much!!!!!! Before he left he gave me a hug and I picked him up and squeezed him in a bear hug and he was like "Ow, my back!" and walking around stooped like an old man lol. Soooo cute!!!!!!! After he left Shanon and I had to get ready to go over to her Dad's place but I kept asking her like 20 times, "do you think he had fun? He seemed like he was having fun... Do you think he had fun?" lol poor Shanon!
So we got all dolled up and Krissy (her sister-in-law) picked us up and when we got to her parent's house he had apparently just said "It's my Birthday and no one's going to show up." lol. Shanon made these cranberry cheesecakes and her Mom made carrot cake and everybody else seemed to really enjoy those and he liked his gifts and then Krissy and Shanon and her Mom started their craziness and way inappropriate jokes and comments and I'm like Oh, somebody kill me, they're out of control! and her Dad looked like he agreed with me. I felt so bad for him! And he was really tired because he goes to sleep at like 6:00pm and we didn't get to his house until almost 7:00, poor guy. And I don't know if Shanon's Mom is mad at me for some reason, but she only said like 2 words to me the whole night and she usually makes an effort to ask how I am and stuff, but Shanon said she's been feeling really, really sick for a couple weeks. So it probably wasn't anything to do with me, but I know I'll obsess about it for forever.
Finally her Dad had enough and needed to go to sleep so Shanon dropped me off and then went to spend the night at Krissy's babysitting her nieces because Krissy had plans to go out, and we usually text or call after she puts her nieces to sleep, but since her phone's battery is like totally dead, we could only communicate by IM. :-( We thought the charger died because it was like chipped and had bite marks all over it because of Trey, so we ordered a new one and plugged it in but it turned on for like 2 seconds saying "charging", "no charge" and then shutting down. So I think it's probably the battery since I got the phone in 2007 and never replaced it, but she doesn't want to buy one so I guess her Dad gave her his phone today and is going to use her old blackberry until she replaces it in January. Ugh! It's clunky and boring and has no qwerty keyboard! I think she should just buy a new battery since we have a new charger now, but noooooooo.
Anyway, that was Friday and I'm super glad Micah came over here and hope he can come back soon, but it might be tricky since school starts again soon. I can't believe he's going to be 7 years old and in 1st grade!!! I still often think of him when he was like 3 and 4, we were so close and I saw him like every day, and now... *sigh* But Shanon said we can move to Rome when she get's a car and that'll be so great because I can help out my family more and watch him when Raigan can't, and it's probably going to be a while, but I at least have that to look forward to!! Well, this entry is at it's end so until next time!
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| Nobody seems to be reading this which is kind of sad, but I suppose I can use it like a regular private journal...
But anyway, my 2 year anniversary with Shanon is coming up in November and we want to stay at Turning Stone Casino and rent a tower suite for 2 nights, do some gambling which I'm excited about cause I've never gambled before, oooh and order room service and have hotel sex!!! lol Can't wait! But we've both got to save a lot and it's not too hard for Shanon because she's better at saving, but for me it's kind of hard because I'm addicted to buying stuff on-line. But anyway, I'm committed to doing it and I even opened up a savings account specifically for this and it's through American Express so I know it's reputable AND it's a high(ish) yield account, so I get back interest and I'm 'cited! lol
And my sister got kicked out of her new apartment after 3 days, and turns out the landlord was a fucking pedophile so I'm glad they got kicked out but now Becky and Micah have nowhere to stay but at my Mom's and they have no room for all of her furniture and stuff so I don't know what they're going to do. The effed up thing is my Mom told her that he was a pedophile because he had the same last name of a friend of my Dad's who asked his friend if he knew this guy and he said he was a cousin who was a convicted sex offender and pedophile, and maybe Becky didn't believe my Mom or my Dad or my Dad's friend but maybe she just didn't give a fuck. Cannicula!!!!! | | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment |
| So, I started Abilify on Saturday and seeing my new doctor at MHC on Wednesday, who I really like btw because she actually took the time to ask about my life and seemed genuinely concerned about my being depressed for 11 years and wanted to actually help me. I haven't had one of those since Susan :-( I miss her!! Anyway, I started it on Saturday and I guess it's really fast acting and she said I should notice it working within a couple days!!
Maybe I should have mentioned how it's supposed to work first! lol I guess it's supposed to help me get an extra boost of energy and make me feel like actually getting my ass out of bed, and it's supposed to help me calm my head so I can focus and not have 2 million thoughts running through my head all the time. If it works she wants to take me off Trazodone and put me on something else for sleep because she think it's making me groggy and sluggish all day, fun right?
So anyway, I got up early on Saturday and started doing chores and I did feel more active and I was proud of myself for getting up early and doing stuff. I was in a kind of grumpy mood throughout the day, maybe from getting up early, and maybe from fixing Shanon's stupid iTunes on her computer. Ugh, what a pain in the ass! I told her I would help her clean it up which means looking up all proper song info, deleting duplicates, and the hardest part: she actually has like a hundred songs with no song name so I have to figure out who sings it and what song it is by Vcast Song ID or typing in the lyrics on yahoo and looking it up. *sigh* What a mess!! So that was really stressful and frustrating which is why I was kind of grumpy and snappy.
Yesterday I didn't do much but fold laundry and beat Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 1 video game on Easy, so I started it over on Medium and was up till 8:00am playing it. Whoops! And Shanon and I watched Priest which was pretty awesome and I really like that Paul Bettany guy (I think that's his name), Wimbeldon is soooo cute!!!! Anyways, idk why the fuck I'm up again after only 4 hours of sleep!!!!! Grrrrr. Poor me!!!
In other news, on Friday I went with my parents to their doctor appointments because I needed to get my blood drawn, and apparently Tom had fallen earlier that day and possibly hit his head and was really unresponsive and his bp was like 50/0! So that's not good and when we got to the doctor's office he was still really dizzy so I had to wheel his pain in the ass in a wheelchair, and he was being such a pain in the ass I wanted to ram him into a wall! My Mom was still in her appt. when it was almost time for his and he's not allowed to go in alone cause of his Dementia and Alzheimer's, so he wouldn't remember anything that was said. And he must have asked me at least 10 times what time his appointment was (10:30) and who it was with, which I didn't know so I had to interrupt my Mom's appointment and ask. Then I couldn't remember the name by the time we got up to the next floor and Tom thought it was something it wasn't and then when I told him he was wrong and it was a different doctor he was like "See, I told ya", urgh! Then when my Mom finally got out of her appointment I wanted to stay and talk to her and he kept telling me to go away and get my blood drawn which I could do at any time and he's so rude!!
When they got out of his appointment my Mom had to drop me off immediately and go straight to Rome to get him a CAT scan of his head and MRI of his heart cause they were really concerned that it was functioning at only 25%, and some X-rays.
I don't really know how those went, they're probably waiting for the results, and my Mom's been monitoring his bp which hasn't been good. And my poor Mom!! On Friday or Saturday she was walking down the sidewalk looking at the groud because she said there was a ribbon trailing behind her and all of a sudden DOOSH she walked right into a sign!!! I feel bad because she had a really big bump on her forehead and was in so much pain she kept throwing up all night, but it's so funny at the same time! lol I'm such a bad daughter.
lol, and last night I was telling my friend Arlene about Tom and she was like "It would be so funny if I still lived near you guys and I saw him on the street and asked how he was and he told me about his heart and stuff and I was like Wow, that Karma's a bitch, huh?" Lmao, I love her. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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